(nad's not in the picture.)something that always makes me wonder the things that are happening presently.
doubts. emotions. feelings. neglections?
each year's bulan puasa always reminds me abt the past.
its always like that kan.. like for this year, reminds me of last year.
rmbr BFFLs? last year's bulan puasa? it was all very rough and alot of things happend?
from 7 to 6.. haiss.. =(
it was all abt misunderstanding.. well not really. hmm..
i still rmbr parts of it. yea we fought with fahmi during this period of time.
bulan puasa.. some lost our patience cos we just cant take it.
it was oh so big lahh.. the whole sch began to ask us "why aren't u guys with fahmi anymore?"
really.. everybody notices.
alot of things happened.
i rmbred he "spit" on us at the sch staircase. then he scolded "bye fuckers" outside of sch.
mia lost patience and began to speak vulgarities. oh myyy.. =/
every 6 of us were badmouthed by him.
every secrets we told were spilled.
i still rmbred his writing which he engraved on his table "BFFL = NOTHING"
we were all very mad. BUT ! we planned to play the silent game.
it was very painful..
situation was especially very tense everytime in class.
and rmbr he said this in class? "bye backstabber". ouch right..
somemore it was near to Olevels. =/
i still rmbr wat he told ppl abt farr.
i still rmbr wat he told ppl abt aisyah.
i still rmbr wat he told ppl abt nifa.
and of cos he told everybody abt wat the 6 of us gossip abt ppl to others.
but the truth is that that doesnt come frm our mouths only.
came frm his mouth too. we began to lose trust in him.
after he badmouthed abt us. i still rmbr History class for me was rough.
we always seat 7ppl with 7 tables conjoined together.
shazwan, daryan, dewi, syaf, farah, aisyah and me.
then that point of time dewi and syaf didnt come.
so the five of us.. but then farah and AISYAH seperated seats frm me and went to the front.
it was really heart breaking and at the same time frustrating.. haiss..
but still.. fahmi continued to spill out everything.
mia nifa farr aisyah nutt yayat.
and then things started to be very tense among the 6 of us when we found out.
it was like some two seperate clan among us.
some started to lose trust among each other.
and everything we do seems suspicious to each other.
relationship began to wither.
but we stayed strong and did not give up on this relationship just because of him.
yes we played the silent game and planned to become merrier than ever. and guess wat?
it worked out very well.. its just a reverse psychology game.
and the 5 of us sit down and talk things out.
it was very emotional. tears on everyone's eyes.
we apologised to each other for talking behind.
and the five of us are closer than before.
yea i think this is all the hikmah behind everything that happened during Ramadhan.
to test our patience. kesabaran. cabaran.
we forgive each other and just continue life as it is.
we forgive fahmi and as i say, continue life as it is.
its hard to go back after all these.
it was such a painful moment for us but yet we are thankful for it. =)
LOVE US BFFLs ! <3
